I cried. I cried a lot. This wasn’t from physical pain – this was emotional. Emotional pain, I’ve found, can be more difficult to bear than physical.
So I prayed day and night for the pain to go away. It was too much for me to endure, too many emotions to deal with. I wanted to believe that I could be “normal” again even when I didn’t feel it.
Could I possibly feel whole and not broken inside?
Sleepless nights turned into drowsy days. Winter turned into summer and yet the pain was still there, as were the tears. Brokenness engulfed me, and I felt lifeless in a sea of waves.
It would take nearly a year for me to feel whole again. Nearly a year.
Pain takes time to heal. And when you’re in the middle of it, often, all you can see is what you feel. And you feel like it’s never going to end. Never going to get better.
But it does.
“Whenever pain points surface, I believe they create opportunities to dig deeper and experience the most thorough, complete healing possible.” – Lisa Murray
I learned to deal with my pain at the onset, because if I didn’t, it would still find me today. Pain has a way of doing that. Agree? You can only mask it for so long before it rises again. If not dealt with properly, in time, the wound opens back up.
Through tears and prayers, I poured it out to God for healing. I did that day after day and month after month. It took effort. It wasn’t easy, but it was all I knew to do. I found that when I did, in return, He filled me with His peace and love.
Peace that said, “It’s going to be OK.”
Love that whispered, “I can make you whole.”
Whether we experience the emotional pain of a loved one gone too soon, a relationship that slipped between our fingers, or watched afar as someone close suffered. When we hand over the broken pieces of our lives that bring us pain, Christ heals it and makes us whole. It’s a slow process, one that is carefully crafted by the Master Creator. He doesn’t rush us or the process. He takes the time needed so we can fully recover because healing takes time.
Perhaps this season of your life you need healing. You feel broken inside. Emotional pain may be eating away at you. You wonder if you could ever feel whole.
Through Christ – you can.
Through Christ – it’s possible.
It takes releasing our pain on a daily basis and then receiving the peace, love and healing only Christ and nothing of this world can offer. A career, relationships, money – all that serves as is a band-aid. Christ’s hand has the ultimate healing touch that brings a permanent, not temporary fix.
As I think back to those years ago of sleepless nights and endless tears, I’m comforted in knowing that I found the restoration I so desperately needed. It took time. It took longer than expected.
Ultimately, Christ bridged the gap from brokenness to wholeness.
“For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, and in Christ you have been brought to fullness. He is the head over every power and authority.” (Colossians 2:9-10, NIV)
This blog post was written because I’ve been reading a book, “Peace For a Lifetime,” by Lisa Murray, a licensed marriage and family therapist. In this book, Lisa shares the keys to cultivating a life of peace. One chapter, in particular, talks about treating our past wounds and Lisa offers years of wisdom and advice in doing so.
This book will work wonders in your life, and I’m pleased to write that I will be giving away a copy of it. Please comment below and I will randomly select one person on Wednesday, March, 23.
*UPDATE* 3/23 Melody won the book.