That four-letter word that many of us don’t like to hear – well I don’t like to hear it either. So when I felt God tell me to do so in a situation I didn’t want to – I wasn’t too pleased.
So I prayed again.
You get the point. Now, not only did I feel God tell me to wait but I didn’t know what I was waiting for. Now doesn’t that sound glorious? Didn’t think so.
It was a very trying time in my life, but through that season, God taught me many lessons. Perhaps the greatest of all – trust.
On one particular day during that particular season, I jotted down some words in my journal. Words that would stay with me. Words I would have to repeat over and over. Words that would challenge me to keep walking forward despite not knowing where my steps would lead.
This is what I wrote, “I don’t know what lies ahead, but this is where I learn to trust.”
When You Fall
We were out in the woods, leaves rustled beneath our feet, laughter echoed through the trees. It was high school, and I was on the varsity basketball team. My coach thought it would be good for us to embark on a team building excursion and that’s what led us to this quiet, remote area. We walked alongside a guide who explained more about what we had in store. One of the first places we stopped at was a wooden, square platform pitched above our heads.
“So one at a time each of you will stand on top of it,” he shouted. “Then, you’ll turn around with your back facing your teammates.”
OK. Sure. What’s the point of this?
“You’ll cross your arms across your chest. Stand on the very edge of the platform. Next, you’ll lean back and fall back,” he said.
We glanced at one another with puzzled faces.
“Trust that your teammates will catch you.”
He Is There
I imagine after I jotted down my journal entry, I closed it tightly, talked to God a little more and went about my day and then my life. Spring ended, summer rolled around and soon fall, and the beauty that came along with it would arrive. Six months would go by before I would begin to see why God asked me to wait.
God had me wait – so I could leave.
Now isn’t that somethin’?
Here’s the thing: If I didn’t learn to trust God in the wait, I wouldn’t have been able to trust Him when I had to leave.
God used that time to prepare me. For me, leaving required more faith than staying. So in the wait, the time when my future was uncertain and when I didn’t know where His hand was leading me – that is where I learned to trust God.
That is where my trust in Him grew. That is where I got to know our Father on a deeper level so when He had me step out in faith; I knew that He would catch me.
And catch me, He did.
Looking down from the platform, I could see my teammates below. They had their arms outstretched, ready to grab hold of me once I decided to fall. It looked easier from the ground, because from this view … well … a part of me wanted to walk away and skip this exercise.
“Come on Crystal!” they cheered. “You can do it. We’ve got you.”
I inched forward as the board beneath me creaked. I began to think back to the time spent with my teammates, from our talks in the locker room to our camaraderie on the court. Not realizing it at the time, but during basketball season, I learned to trust them.
And so I turned around, crossed my arms, took a deep breath with the wind whistling around me – and fell.
I believed that they would catch me.
And catch me, they did.
Trust His Character
Friend, God, is always drawing us closer. Closer so that we can go deeper in faith. There are many steps of faith God will ask each of us to take, some small, others big, but they all require trust. That is why it’s so important to know God intimately. The more we know Him, the more we trust Him. The more we trust Him, the easier it is for us to move from steps of faith to leaps.
God isn’t going to ask you to jump if you’re still learning to walk. It’s a process. One that you are a part of every day.
But are you rushing past the learning?
This season of life you’re in right now, maybe this is where you learn to trust God, really trust Him. Trust Him in the wait. Trust Him in the leaving. Trust Him with the outcome. So when He calls you to a bigger step of faith, you’ll do so with the utmost confidence that you’ll land safely in His arms.
You may not know what lies ahead, so learn to trust the One who does.
I pray for the kind of trust that steps out with full confidence. This season of my life, I want to learn more about You and Your faithfulness. Help me as I grow in my faith journey so that one day I can go from steps of faith to leaps.
In Jesus’ name amen.